Erm...alright, guess its time to clear away all the webs and spiders that had been left untouched here. Over the past few months, a handful of events happened. Just to summarise, they are mainly categorised into uncontrollable expenditure for gadgets, last phase of NSF life(
but starting of NSmen life) and removal of wisdom tooth.
Er... lets start off with the last phase of NSF life. I would say the last lap is the toughest in terms of relationship between certain superiors. Misunderstandings, bad judgements, illogical and senseless commands and it just goes on and on and on... ALL these comes from them and i suffered badly under all these nonsense. Initally, i had this slight thinking of signing-on. Upon experiencing all these idiotic stuns, im glad i had dropped the idea much earlier on and felt stupid to have those thoughts in the first place. Furthermore, undergoing all these nonsense, i had this phrase that came across my mind: If you think mediacorp has the most number of outstanding actors, think again; THE ARMY. I guess it is more or less self-explanatory right? As of how you guys wanna interpret this, i shall leave it to your own imagination. After all those blood, er... okay abit exaggerated, maybe, extra effort, time and sweat that i had shed and spent for the benefit of this organisation, they failed to recognise this. But i am still fine with it. As i know that what i have done is honest, upright with no ill-intention and true to myself. HOWEVER, not only did they failed to recognise this efforts, BAHHH.. not to mention about rewarding, some even claimed that i did not do any work and is just a person who puts in minimal effort in what i do. PUI!!! I am SOOOOO pissed off with these comments. EXCUSE ME, only those guys who curry favour deserves your rewards and good comments? ARGH.... bunch of senseless and illogical human beings... the usual me would be starting to hurl curses and harsh remarks at them. BUT, my kind heart told me to stop and should not lower myself to such level. Afterall there is such things about, what goes around, comes around. In addition, i let this word, retribution, to give them the necessary punishments. Talking about fair punishment, retribution is never wrong.
Ok, enough of rantings, next would like to share about some experience that i had went through during wisdom tooth extraction. Just about a close to 2 months ago, i decided to remove my 2 wisdom tooth as they starting to give problems like food stuck in there and ulcers caused by it. Hence, went for the appointment, took a x-ray and realised that i had 4 wisdom tooth instead of 2. I was kinda shocked to hear that as i thought i had only 2- which means only 2 "poped" out and the remaining 2 is still well hidden underneath the gums. After inspection, the dentist recommmended to remove all 4 as they would cause problems when i grow older. So in the end, i chose to move 2 by 2 within 3 weeks with 1 week interval after the first operation.
Woah, the experience is NOT NICE. Unlike my other friends who only experienced pain and bleeding for first 1 or 2 days, i experienced sharp pain at night and bleeding even till the 4th day. HARD luck i guessed.. and the worst part is my face is soooo swollen till i looked like CHIPMUNKS. Sighz.. anyway, I took photos of 1 of the wisdom tooth which i had extracted, Didnt take the other one as it was drilled into 4 pieces and looked too gross. I decided to throw it away and keep the one that is still intact. TOOTH ALERT!! DO NOT SCROLL DOWN IF YOU THINK YOU WILL FAINT and APOLOGISES IF IT CAUSED ANY EMOTIONAL DAMAGE. SCROLL AT YOUR OWN RISK.....
So yep, i presented to you my wisdom tooth. Er... it looked yellowish at the root which i dunno why. Pls do not think that i didnt brush my teeth yea? CUS i DO brush my teeth DAY AND NIGHT without fail and sometime, even after some meals, if im happy. hahaha. Its so much bigger that i expected. Or at least, thats what i think. Apologies if i sounds like a mountain tortise. BUT who else other than dentist frequently see a fully grown adult tooth? hehehe.. For those who are curious, this extracted tooth is thoroughly cleaned and soaked with 100% dettol with 100 degree celsius boiling water. After which, brushed with tooth paste and sunned for about half a day before putting it into a ziplock bag with a small packet of dessicant inside.
Alright, lastly gonna repent on how i have been splurging on gadgets. Take a look at what i have bought.
1. Erm... ok bought 2 games, er... some entertainment is ok right? Furthermore, its original!!
2. Next would be a router which cost only $35 which i bought from a forum. Hmm.. setting up a wireless network at home for my sister to use internet. She so poor thing, cannot surf net. So as a nice brother, i should do something about it right?
3. A gaming mouse for only $25 where outside is selling at $45. Bought from a forum again. A good deal and bargain isnt it? Hence, shouldn't it be grabbed then let a good deal get pass me? And er.. my old mouse abit cranky, so its ok to replace it right?
4. A nice mood clock that changes colour. Best, its only $5 and bought it from a forum. At night, if i cant go to sleep, i can jus look at it and eventually go to sleep. Its much better than taking a sleeping pills right?
5. Lastly, the biggest item bought. A camera handphone, LG KS20. Fully touch screen. Sleek and classy design. SO NICEEEE... My mobile contract ended and had a discount voucher. Needed a camera handphone and has been researching on it. So it wasn't bought on impluse. If i walk around without a camera phone, if something happen *choy* and i need photo evidence how? So its ok that i buy a camera hp that i will use for next few yearS right?
6. A marti field screen protector that protects the front and back. A good phone deserves a good screen protector right? The phone wont look nice if it had scratches all over right? and no point buying a cheap screen protector that peels off easily or damage or stained my beloved hp with lousy adhesive right?
So above is my explainations for splurging on gadgets. Yep, and kinda feel better now. hahahaha. Anyway, the above photos are taken using my hp, so dun mind the poor resolution yea? its only a 2MP and not 5MP. Alright, tomorrow, but since it had passed 12mignight, so yep, later at 0930hrs, i gonna remove another pair of wisdom tooth on the left side. Wish me luck in recovering. Luck to my friends who will be having exams and presentations. CHEERS TO ALL :D
beautiful moments @ 12:09 AM
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Its almost a month since the new year had begun. There are some new resolutions i had made for myself; Firstly and my utmost priority- getting a scholarship from A*star, Exxon or DSTA. Next would be getting a class 3 license, followed by moulding my character to become a better one. Well..... and had a last one but guess shalln't disclose it. OH ya... and also hope to strike that CNY ANG PAO TOTO. Imaging what i can do with that lum sum of cash- WONDERS.
Getting close to ODRing and sorta did a reflection. I could still remember vividly the day when i first entered the service. Suffered and endured through the physically demanding basic training. Hmm... doubt anyone knows that the following 3months in sispec was my darkest days. i hope things like that wouldnt happen ever again. Spent about 1 year plus in unit, half the time doing my vocation job, half the time conducting training course. Not bad i would say, got to experience both side of unit life. Overall, kinda enjoyed NS. Cheers to those who serve with pride, Jeers to those who serve with butt.
Finally got passed for all my theories for driving and picking up practical lessons. Sighz... Today which is the 4th lesson, my car "died". I see it as an big embrassment to suddenly when about to move off, then the car engine stalled. DARN.. and what's worst is that it happened 3 times in a roll within 30mins!!! its all cause of i got over-confident about finding the biting point fast and realsed it too quickly. well.. a summarised mistakes and things learnt since the first lesson:
(i)Slowly find the biting point and hold it there till the car had moved off for about 2-5meters. Failing to do so will cause the engine to stall.
**EMBRASSMENT ALERT**
(ii)When its green light and making a right turn, hold in half clutch position for the car to slowly catch up the turning vehical, fully depress the clutch once u catch up. Failing to do so will result to either too big gap btwn and will lead not not be able to turn in time/smoothly or will get too close to the vehical ahead. This will result to point deduction.
(iii)With reference to the scenario in point (ii); When its ur turn to go, half clutch and move off while looking right for any incoming vehicle. Changed to gear 2 while controlling the steering wheel. Failing to do so will result to road hogging while making a turn and causing road hazard. Points will be deducted big time.
**WEAKNESS ALERT**
(iv)While changing gears, never release the accelerator too fast before fully depressing the gear. May relase abit to slow down the speed. Failure to do so will result your car's speed to slow down and result to changing gear at unappropriate speed. Points might be deducted?? not too sure about this.
(v)After changing the gear DO NOT release the clutch too fast. Instead slowly release it while simultaneousely depressing the accelerator. Failure to do so while result to your car jumping.
Above points are mainly to keep track of what i had learnt and to share with my friends of not to do the same mistakes as me. Though some points is part of the advance theory, but seriously, when one is driving, theories are indeed hard to apply on the spot. Guess practise makes perfect. Hopefully able to master everthing by mid may as june 3 is my TP date. I wanna fufill one of my new year resolution. Wish me luck and CHEERs to all.. :)
beautiful moments @ 1:47 PM
Monday, December 24, 2007
very soon.. it is christmas..and again its christmas eve today.. but again stuck alone at home once more..every year.. always had this hope and dreams about christmas eve.. to me its kinda quite a nice and meaningful day.. however, every year, had to self-convinced that the following christmas eve, it shall not be passed mundanely... however this year.. its still no exception.. nevertheless.. would still wanna wish all my friends out there a merry christmas... cheers
beautiful moments @ 1:35 AM
Sunday, December 09, 2007
hmm... recently rained heavily... somehow signified bad omen... well.. indeed its a bad omen... somehow messed it up a little in work.. witnessed many disputes.. involved in one or two... lost my phone.. second one in less than 4 month period.. sighz.. feel quite bad and lousy.. nevertheless.. trips to the beach indeed helped me greatly.. chill out there much.. and recently.. im on a spree to spend most of my ready cash... first time and hope its the last time... swiped to the max of my credit.. feel so relaxed after that.. enjoying the products i've bought and the food.. well.. guessed its time to start saving again... did some furnishing and repacking of my room.. its a new start for me.. and hope lady luck could spare some of her blessings soon...cheers~
beautiful moments @ 12:51 AM
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
somehow.. its almost took me a month to see some light... past few weeks.. experienced tremendous pains within.. the worst pain one can get is where pain is within ur mind and heart, not physically... hardly any medication available... not only that... had made numerous mistakes and wrongdoings out of anger, anguish and despair.. seeked forgivness and understanding... had been paying visits to the beach through jogging and cycling.. this is the only therapy that came to the mind... spent some time listening to the peaceful melody of the waves.. enjoying the sea breeze... looking up upon the sky... done alot of reflecting... most of the time apologising and regretting... and trying to get some thoughts straightened out... still trying hard to let go of something... however this feeling of lonliness is terrible... nevertheless... things are somehow better now... but couldn't get rid of the feeling that many people around hated me... well.. just hope that time do heals... and not to forget.. sincerely thank the only two kind souls, other that my family, who responded to my silent and desperate call for help... your hands had reached me in time... without you two.. i wouldnt know wat would have happened.. perhaps........
beautiful moments @ 11:44 PM
Saturday, October 20, 2007
day after day,
the sun seemed to be getting further away...
it sets much earlier and raised later...
at times,
it was no where to be found...
days were getting darker and darker,
everything appeared colourless and lifeless...
motions decelerated...
energy and motivation waved goodbye...
disheartened to approach,
afraid of being scoffed at...
everyone seems so far away and unreachable...
seems to have stepped out and departed from this lonely circle...
void unmistakenly found to be building up within...
despair, sorrows and sometimes anger could be found...
darkness has creeped in and seems to be filling up the void...
within the mind,
chaos... regrets... pain... confusion... agony... bitterness..
a legion of disorganized thoughts seeks enlightenment...
for a moment of tranquility,
was seeked through a state of being tipsy...
to the one,
please bestow little one the strenght...
the strength to see light...
the strength to overcome darkness and void...
elseways,
uncertainty could define the new future....
beautiful moments @ 9:20 PM
Open Arms - Journey
Lying beside you, here in the dark
Feeling your heart beat with mind
Softly you whisper, youre so sincere
How could our live be so blind
We sailed on together
We drifted apart
And here you are by my side
So now I come to you, with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping youll see what your love means to me
Open arms
Living without you, living alone
This empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near
How much I wanted you home
But now that youve come back
Turned night into day
I need you to stay.
So now I come to you, with open arms
Nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms
Hoping youll see what your love means to me
Open arms
beautiful moments @ 11:47 PM
Monday, September 17, 2007
after living as an adult for slightly more than a month.. it seems to me that nothing more than the usual stuff is happening around.. but some thinking seems to be changed... started to think of saving money seriously this time round... actually got physchoed to open a saving account from citibank.. partly due to that the interest rate is high.. trying to force myself that the money there must be stationary and not to be touched.. well... can possible be considered as "lao po ben"....
strange... i wonder.. does the feeling of lonliness grows together with age... i kept feeling quite alone most of the times... sometimes its that i had something to share.. for a moment i not sure whom i can share with... afraid that if it would it be misinterpreted negatively... or could have said something wrong.. hence i'll jus drop the idea.. moreover.. every now and then, i'll jus keep checking my hp if there's any msg or miss call... when i see that there isnt and call or msg.. somehow.. i feel abit... well.. i'll jus sighz... the frequency seems to be increasing.. but if there's a msg, super delighted i am.. even if its jus a simple forward msg.. and one bad thing is that.. the thought of going back to drinking.. whenever i had nothing to be occupied with, i'll keep thinking about going for drink... am i sorta addicted..?? well.. totally no idea.. hahaha sounds like self pity(ing).. nah.. not really though.. jus wanna pour something out... else somehow feel very vex... another new week.. maybe it be a better week.. for me and everyone... Cheers~~
beautiful moments @ 12:05 AM
Friday, September 07, 2007
again almost a month since last entry... a recap of some significant events that happened so far.. well.. of course.. the very first is me birthday.. though it might be late now but still wanna sincerely thank me pal who had fork out some time to attend this party despite their busy scheduel.. hmm.. enjoyed much much that day but suffered much much more after that.. hmm... quite bad that i damaged my gastric due to excessive drinking without filling up my stomach.. stupid and silly move but sometimes jus cant help it.. hmm.. how should i phrase it.. maybe its the kick that ur brain dun function and u act base on how ur heart feels... lucky after i asked around.. i realise that my heart is not that bad.. had not done any bad stuff.. haha lucky me.. but well.. i think i splurted out somethings that not meant to say... that caused a butterfly effect.. or perhaps not really to the affected ones but to me... gosh.. i really dunno how to answer thoroughly for it.. even though they said their fine and understands it.. but me can help it but to keep apologising in my heart to them.. and gosh... there goes my image... after which.. became bed ridden for close to 4 days.. and stuck with semi solid food for near 1.5 weeks.. gosh... alcohol do have "deadly" effect eh.. this kinda marks the end of me 21st celebration.. and guess im afraid of alcohol for a while.. but not for long..
after the recovery.. or in the recovering state.. manage to catch 2 movies.. flashpoint and 881.. both were nice shows and of course 881 being soooo touching that had caused me drop a few drops of tears... unfortunately.. a female friend of mine happend to see it... gosh.. how unsightly and unlucky it would be for me.. letting a lady seeing such a situation.. very very embrassing eh... haha oh well... lucky for me... i think that she had forgotten about it by now...
upcoming month would be a month where im prepared to be broke... fasting from luxurious delicacies to prepare for nice nice gifts.. and of course this time round i have my medicine prepared and learnt a lesson... to eat tons of food before drinking.. shall i get my "revenge"? or shall i be a saint and refrain from the TRUE HEART feeling...... Cheers...
*PS*Scarborough Fair gives a very melancholy rythem isnt it... such a nice song..
beautiful moments @ 11:48 PM
Saturday, August 04, 2007
Happy Birthday to me.. so glad that 2 ladies of importance in my life had jus sent their greetings.. so glad.. but sadly only two of them.. haha its ok tomorrow there'll be more.. Lastly, may all my wishes comes true and everyone lives with perfect health...
beautiful moments @ 1:39 AM
erm...hmm.. its been some time since i record something down. but actual reason is that there arent anything significant to be remembered. some events happened since last entry would be chalets for friends' birthday. nicely drunk on several occasions.. haha nice feeling when unpleasent memories can be abandoned sometimes and jus do wat u think.... but of course its still in sober mode so as not to do things that is against my principles and must be morally upright.... afterall, i still kinda a image sensative person you see... hahaa.. congrates to those who had entered adulthood.. but seriously i dun like the feeling of entering adulthood... cant stand the fact that me finally growing old and feeling the pain of getting so old.. yeeeew....
life recently not that nice... not having enough sleep, involved in soo many office politics, difficulty in handling some shit interpersonal skills with certain people.... being at the wrong place and the wrong time, ended up doing extra work without recognition and appreciation.... sighz.. thats life i guess.. gotta learn to accept the fact that sometime, things really dun go with wat we think and expected... worst still... nightmares seems to be huanting me... not gd not gd....
many nights woke up perspiring and shocked... fortunately.. nice friends around like paul can hang out with at times to get some fresh air.. hahaha sometimes really wanted to thank them and again esp paul to fork out some time to go out... but hahaha abit ps to tell them face to face... appreciation is sometimes hard to express at times... hahaha especially for me.. sighz...
hmmmm... about 30mins ago, which is like 04-07-2007 at roughly 2345hrs, a year ago.... i drew tons and tons and tons of courage somehow on that very night to express some thoughts to a special one... time flies and i've actually been a waiter for a year.. but to be exact its probably more that a year.. 2 years or more maybe... hahaha me wonder... has memories faded for the one... or perhaps the answer is already been expressed in terms of hints.... me not sure.. me jus a useless juke when comes to such things......... despair im becoming.... hahaha well.. lets see how fate goes.... as usual.. down with sorrows, drink till there's no tomorrow... CHEERS~
beautiful moments @ 12:13 AM
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
oh well.. its been a long time since i ever wrote something down.. perhaps the possible reasons could be busy with NS and maybe isnt anything happy to write about.. sighz.. past few months.. few ups and uncountable downs.. sighz.... finally im outta trainee life.. thats one big up.. recently quite bad.. unknowingly kinda picked up drinking.. really bad.. but sometimes.. cant help it... the feeling or perhaps the effect of alcohol.. can make one thinks more optimitistic and think less about the bad.. sighz.. sometimes... really cant understand why can feeling jus "poof" gone at an instant... is it something that one had done wrong?? why is all i could say and think off..... drink and drink and drink.. despite that face could easily turn burning red.. how i wish i could stop.. but i see no point.. except for monetory factor and health factor.. this two factor... jus kinda feel that it isnt good enough for me to stop.. even more now that i have my kakis.. hence all i can do is jus stand up and raise for this phase that i had thought off "down with sorrows... drunk till tomorrow..." Cheers!!
beautiful moments @ 12:56 AM
